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"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes"- Raul Solnado

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Surviving Life's Trials

Hey ya! How are you guys doing?

I'm good. Just here in England trying to do my thing which  I don't exactly know what I mean by that, but I mean it,  and trying not losing hope in the future that shows itself so difficult to handle. 

So, I'm having a few problems applying to the course I want in university and I'm afraid I can't get into this year :/ I'm trying to avoid thinking about this subject because it stress me out so much but I keep doing that!  The problem is that I'm already a bit late and still,  I won't be able to apply till the end of April. I just hope everything goes well because I've invested so much time and money in this "adventure" that I can't afford losing another year doing that. 

Despite this, I've got some "good" (still discovering if it is) news. I'm finally living alone and yes, I know living alone isn't the same thing as being alone. Just me, my music and my thoughts. I really miss my auntie because she used to make laugh all the time. Now I have to find my own way to chill out about my problems. I think that's what life is about: finding your own ways to overcome obstacles,  find your own ways to cope with your daily stress and if possible, find your own way to joy whatever you achieve in life. 

Sometimes I feel a bit depressed and crying for no reason cause I'm paying the price of persuing my dream: leaving those I love the most.  :'(

Lately, I can only find comfort and peace in the fact that my Lord, my God is a merciful and gracious God who sees past my shortcomings and makes all things new.

For now, I want to encourage you that whatever you're feeling, whatever you're it going through, you are not alone. 

Here's to us, dear friend. And the trials we're facing together. Keep on. 

I'm praying for you guys!!

Sincerely yours,

Tommy ♥


Hallelujah: The best version I've heard!

I was made for you ...

 "Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes"- Raul Solnado

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"As long as you're alive and care, I promise I will take you there.

Come with me and we’ll drive all night, through this town, under streetlights. We were two kids with no worries. Everything was wrong, but it felt so right. As long as you were on my side, on my side tonight. With the windows down and the radio at full blast, your hair in the wind, you know I can’t handle that. Let’s pause this moment in time. We’ll stay here forever. Let’s stay here forever."

"I think that when you fall in love with someone, every single day you spend with them you fall in love with them even more. It’s like you find something else to love about them everyday. The way they laugh, the way they sneeze, even the way they blink. I think that’s how relationships last. When things are exciting, everyday you spend with that person is like an adventure into their soul."

If you only knew how much I miss you ... :')

 "Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes"- Raul Solnado

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a gift, to be loved by you

" I should have guessed, when I first laid eyes on you that I was in trouble. I was the one you chose, out of all the doe eyed, helpless girls you chose me, and I was lost. I can't remember when I lost control of it, when I fell, but I do remember the way you looked at me, the way you touched me, like there was nobody else in the room, nobody but me.

You used to grab my hand, slip your fingers into mine, they were so much bigger, but they fit perfectly, and we were perfect. You would wrap yourself around me, you would engulf me, I always felt so safe in your arms, invincible. I could feel your love seeping into me, it smothered me and protected me from the world, because you were mine, and you were here.

And then you left.

You left, but your still here.

I miss your touch, your kiss, your smell, your everything. Sometimes late at night, I can feel you sleeping next to me, I can still feel your warmth and it's like you're home.

Sometimes we'll speak to each other in different languages. We used to sneak off together, we would plan it all out, we were invincible, we still are.

I remember this time, you had made me a fort downstairs, and we were sitting in it like children. It was in the beginning, and I just remember, I remember how badly I wanted to tell you that I loved you, but I was terrified, I still am. Later we would speak those words to each other in confidentiality, though it didn't last for long. You would always show me off, you wanted everyone to know I was yours, this girl, who loved you, I was the greatest thing in the world to you.

Months later, we still belong to each other. We've gown up, grown together, but we're still the same. I would still cross the sea to be with you, and you'd still fight off bears and lions to protect me. It is the greatest thing to have ever happened to me, it is such a gift, to be loved by you, to be yours.

And through thick and thin, I will always be here, right by your side, right where I belong, with you.

Sincerely,

your heart "

"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes"- Raul Solnado

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Le Love

"Its something new everyday. Some stupid, little, petty, senseless fight. Ive been dealing with it for 2 years now. I ask myself why? Why do i put up with it? Why do i settle? why make myself unhappy, so he can be happy? The only thing i can come up with is, love. But then i ask myself again. Why? Why do you love him? Why do you care for him? The only thing i can come up with is, because i just do. Well thats not good enough. There should be atleast one point that sticks out in your head to why you love someone. Is it because hes my first boyfriend? The first boy that i actually cared about, and say those 3 words to? Is it because i am more than comfortable to be myself around him? Thats what i think it is. Being in my comfort zone. But why? Im a strong girl that shouldnt be afraid to step out and be free once again. Thats when i go back to, No Its because I love him. BUT WHY?! Whats there to love? He puts you down. He belittles you beyond belief sometimes. He tries to control your EVERY move. Picks fights everyday. He shouldnt throw foul language at you like its his job. Thats NOT what love is. Love should make you feel happy and blessed that you found someone like your partner. Not miserable, and angry. You should feel proud to bring him around your friends and show him off. Not just stay in the house. He should bring you gifts and surprise you with your favorite candy and flowers once in a while. Not threaten to break the relationship up. Ive been on this road too many times. I should have more pride and self respect to not be treated this way. I know i can do better, i know i can get better. I know i deserve better after all the shit ive been through my entire life. Maybe somehow and someway my brain is trying to convince me that i love him, and that im happy with him. But the thing is, in some twisted way, I AM happy to be with him. Cause when im not with him, im miserable. But wait, im miserable already in the relationship. I dont know, im confused… This is only my first “love.” Im only 18. I see all the problems wrong with this relationship. I see what needs to be fixed. Now its time to just deal with the fact that, none of it is going to be fixed, and he wont change, because hes a stubborn dick! I just have to be wise and tell myself that, this is just a lesson to be learned for what i dont want in my life. I need to be thick solid on the decision. But im still learning how to do that. Maybe thats why im still in this relationship, cause im STILL LEARNING."

"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes"- Raul Solnado

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Traveling and experiencing the world :)

Hey bloggers,  I'm feeling a bit melancholy right now (But I Mean That in a good way) so I felt like writing ...
Hello! It feels strange not having posted in more than a week! I know that's not a great deal of time, but having so much time on my hands I've been able to post everyday, and suddenly everything has gone into an overwhelming overdrive so I've been a little tight for time!

SO I am sitting here just musing with my thoughts and thinking about all the craziness that I get to experience everyday.  It's insane! I'm miles away from home, almost living alone (in a few weeks, I'll be totally by myself) and experiencing everyday different habits from mine. 

I admit it, I'm not much of a traveler. I enjoy the occasional road trip, but I don't make a habit of going too far from home. 

This experience has made me realize how incredible my friends are, how awesome my family is, and how bright and shinning my future will be.  There are so many times that I begin to stress and panic and think that the world will never look any brighter; but each morning I wake and decide to live for myself and enjoy every moment. If could be happier? Definitely. I would be so much more if the people I most love were with me, right here. It may look a bit senseless but I think I needed to be myself for awhile. Not to start worthwhiling those people but to start growing as a human being. I always thought I was the kind of child independent enough to make the journey alone. But I realized how much I need them here, by my side.  Still, the reality is that from the day we are born our journey is ours, alone. And as much as it might feel like it sometimes, I know I'm not facing the world alone.

Anyhow, I'm going to try and post as much as possible and will try and stay in the loop - it's amazing how many blogs I had to catch up on after just two days of not checking!

See ya later, 

Regards, Tommy

"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes"- Raul Solnado

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