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Hiya! Wel this is a late-posting. I've written this post some time ago, more precisel last sunday, before the enrolling week has started. Due to a lot of stuff that has happening lately,   I never really got time to post it. so here it goes now...
To finish, I will be as well posting an update text related to my uni experience, on the following days, talking about my enrolling week, these first official days and my adaptation to everything around.
See you next time,
X

« Hey everybody!
I've just figured one more reason for the existence of MK. This may sound somewhat strange but I really enjoy doing monologues. Just pretending I'm talking to someone who is close and sharing with him what disturbs my mind and results in this lack or incapability of being normal. Usually no ones hears them, but it was time to gain a voice, and MK has brought that to me. The security that even though my secrets are over there in the internet, no one will do nothing but listen to me. It feels nice, I must admit, knowing that people care about me, about this ongoing version of myself. At least that's what stats indicates (over 14.000 views, thank you all a lot). In the beggining, the no. Of views used to influeciate my assiduaty, the no. of posts I did per month. Neverthless, at the moment, the no. of views only assure me one simple thing, there's only a pal, a dear friend, a blogger, who is out there and is interested in getting to know me, as an aspirant in writing and as well, in life. And that fact just blows my mind. I know you guys don't give a lot of feedback, maybe because it is hard to connect with my experiences, but it means a lot that you still visit me after all the time that has passed. Even though I'm only an 18 young lady, my life has been following different paths from the people of my age. I don't a give a crap to a lot of stuff they do. Of course I care about my appearence but since I'm not even partly comfortable with it, I just wear anything. Especially here in england, where all girls are skinny, blond and little princesses. I only wear something special or take more time getting myself ready when I know there will be someone I actually like, care about, someone special waiting to see me. At the moment, there's no one like that in my daily life. Those people usually consume us until we drain out of breath and pulse. Being in love is just too hard when you are not reciprocrated. What people call of unrequited love.
I had my first match in love, a few months ago. At least I thought I did. However, it was not meant to be. We just failure to meet. I'm not a very destiny defender, but in this case, I can't deny. Either love is too complicated or I complicate him.
I look forward for the beggining of this school year. I really want to meet someone new e move on with this part of my life. This is keeping me down, I deserve better. I'm good girl, I honour my parents and my principles, I deserve someone who honours me and feels the same love I do for him. I'm sick of humillianting me for someone not worthy. If you proved in more ways than by words, your feelings for that person and still is not enough for him to decide to give some back means that he's not the one for you.
Anyway, uni is about to start and I'm not nervous, at all, I'm just worried about my performance and adaptation. Hope everything turns out OKAY.
X
love y'all
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Hiya fellas!

My very deep apologies for my lately absence, my adorable followers. As I referred on my last post, I went back to the UK. I'm currently here lulz. And since I arrived, including the trip back, no rest I was aloud to have. I have been dealing with a lot stress and rush and I'm trying to keep myself together and focused on my goals. Today, finally, I have some time to breathe and recharge my batteries, so what is better than catching up with my bloggers?
To begin with, I know I've been complaining a lot about coming back to England but the truth is that I'm painting the picture a bit darker than it actually is and this isn't bad at all. On the bright side, for exemple, I am looking forward to study at Huddersfield. Everything was set up properly and the first day is happily arriving with no visible drawbacks. And Precisely a week ago, Me and a friend of mine that took her degree at Huddersfield, went there so that a bit of the environment and project and match what I had in mind with the crude reality and I was positively surprised. Huddersfield is indeed a very charming town, quite similar to Leeds, where I live, and the University is simply outstanding. It was a very pleasant surprise realising that I actually did manage to enter there in such a short period of time. The Psychology department is situated at the oldest building, which, in my opinion, suits perfectly what psychology is as a science and as a subject that studies not only, but foremost, the human mind. So I can really wait for this adventure to begin. I will give my best to nothing more nothing less than excelent, as one of closest friend, says. Be excelent must be a personal requirement in evrything we do, otherwise we never are getting anywhere.
Furthermore last week, another thing happened. Unfortunately, didn't end as I imagine it would and my family has suferred a terrible lost. To be honest, not so much to myself I wasn't that close to the person who has passed away (interesting expression, isn't it? I have a theory about it. Abother day I'll share it). Therefore I won't be an hypocritical and say that I cried or something but I was definitely touched my the matter. It was my great grandmother whom passed away. She was almost 100 years old (that's quite a number, right?) and it was a no-previous-warning event, she looked healthy and fine for her age. I think we all have the comfort that she had a very simple, happy and long life, precisely how she wanted, so we should congratulate the years we were blessed to spend with her.
Anyway, because of this sad event, my grandma went to Sao Tome so that she could see one last time her mother and be surrounded by her brothers and sister. And I stayed almost this entire week looking after my uncle dede. It was quite a work. It was my first time. I mean I always only had the fun part with him, the entertaintment part. However this time, beyond that, I had to prepare his food, giving him baths and cleaning him and lifting him up and down or from one place to another. It is incredible how my grandma did this for almost 30 years. I mean, I only had a sample and I'm already dying lulz. Anyhow, he worths the effort and this is a self pleasure too. We always had a lot of fun together and it is time for me to give back part of the love I always received from him. I love my uncle. He is a very special man, not only for his condition, but as well for the way he faces life.:-)always so grateful and happy. It is touching to see. I wish we could all learn with him. I really believe that people like my uncle are better than the rest of us. They are more special, gifted, sensitive and even clever.
Well, bloggers, to finish, I am looking for a room or flat. I decided I won't any longer live with my grandma. I need my space and privacy and that won't be, for sure, achieved if we live together under the same roof. Thereafter, I am looking for a room or flat to rent during this school year near to my university. I found on the internet a few very interesting options so maybe this moving in and out, will sooner thabn I thought at first.
Well, that's pretty much it.
Below are some pics and a short vlog. Enjoy and until next time!
xx
Tommy :-)
PS. I know I should have highlighted the following dates earlier: the 28th August and 1st  September before, but I was off broadband at home so I didn't manage to do it by the right time. However anyway, these are two very singular and important dates to me. It's my best friend and my little brother birthdays. They are both simply gorgeous folks that I don't believe I could live without. I love you both very much and please this year aloud yourself to dream a little.

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