I think I would rather die of you than live without you.

"The only thing worse than a boy who hates you...A boy who loves you."
It's a beautiful and intensively dark quote from the Book Thief by Markus Zusak. I've started reading this book last week and unfortunately, due to my university and work affairs, I haven't had the opportunity to progress much into it. From what I have managed to read and from what I have also heard, it is a very dark book, yet beautifully written and astonishingly realistic. 

I haven't got to the part of the book where this quote is located but... well, actually this quote is the reason I have decided to read the book. It is such a sad reality of love and I thought whoever was capable of saying something like that, would definitely be capable of writing an enchanting story. 
To get hurt by someone you mean nothing to and someone who despises the person you are and become daily, it is no easy fate. However, since it is very likely that they know very little about the person who lives inside you, their words will never as harsh as they think they will. Because in the end, they are pointing their fingers to the image and emotional representation they have made of you which most likely will deviate a thousand miles from what you truly are. 

But someone who loves, someone who learned to love you, because they know you. Because they fell in love with all the beings of your self. If they hurt you deliberately orunintentionally...
honey most likely will be the most painful thing you will ever feel. It will feel as if you heart has been ripped off your body and the blood who once ran in your veins , now is frozen. You will feel puzzled and groundless and just miserable. It is not something you will advise someone else to feel... ever. 
That's the thing about love. People, including myself, are obsessed with love. And demonstration of love and right ways of explaining what love is and who we should or should not love. There is a full infinity-sized handbook of love out there on social networks and books and films. However, what all these manuals fails to mention is that love is the fast lane to death. Whether is it spiritual, physical or both. 
Love is a death sentence, the forbidden fruit that banishes you from the love-free paradise. 
Love is the all that takes to nothing. Is a complete feeling of emptiness. Love is losing your sense of identity because being you no longer matters. Love isn't pretty. Love gets pretty ugly instead. 
But yet, I finish every post here with "love always".Why then choose a love that can kill you over a peaceful life?  Because as much as all the suffering it can bring, it is the only path to happiness as well. Not instantaneous joy, happiness. Intense, longing happiness. The type that only people that can hurt you, can give you. 
I think I would rather die of you than live without you.

Love always,
Tommy

"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes" - Raul Solnado