I've found my home.

This is really hard to explain, but, I'll give my best shot. These past couple years, maybe three years, I've been crazily emotional. I think it has to be with my adolescent years and falling in love for the first time and making all these big decisions about my future as early as it was and etc. I don't even know how people did not get tired of me, I guess they really like me. Anyhow, I've  been really needy and needy and gosh needy as hell. And daydreaming and wishing and writing love poems and little songs and heats and all those things (I have to say, now I find it all very pathetic). However someway, somehow lately I've been feeling different. I can actually suppress my feelings and don't let 'em control anymore. I'm overwhelmed, I feel sober, secure, capable. Better. Nothing new nor different happened. I am still the same me, but I'm in a good place. In a place, I feel I'm enough. I just feel okay and like claiming to the world that this is my life and I am ready to rule the world. I can do my best. I can be the best. I am a talented (still don't know what my talent is, but I am a hard-worker), bright, secure of herself, lovely and beautiful young woman with a brilliant future ahead.

It's where you go when you're alone
It's where you go to rest your bones
It's not just where you lay your head
It's not just where you make your bed
As long as we're together, does it matter where we go?

(This song reminds me of Bon Iver and Birdy's songs. She has an amazing pure and angelical voice. It's lovely to listen to. Don't you agree?)

Love always,
Tommy

PS. This maybe the lack of sleep talking but I really hope to stay like this for a long time. I need myself in this position to move on with my life. For the first in a long time too, my nights are not the best of my days, I've been having nightmares and weird scary dreams, but I'm over them. I don't have to be scared. I trust my inner goddess, please trust yours. You'll be fine. It may take a while for you to feel okay but you will and you gonna be Big. Bigger than anyone ever thought.

"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes" - Raul Solnado