After all, it's about love.

Hey bloggers and Happy belated Valentine's day! Hope you all couples had a lovely time together and you singles didn't commit any homicides because of the current's Valentine's day hatred epidemic.
Well it's been a week since I last wrote so you would expect me to come back with some exciting updates concerning my life but the truth is that I don't have anything new to update to say.
I had a good valentine's with my friends and that was it for the week.
All you need to know about this past week actually happened yesterday. For the first time in my life someone got me something for Valentine's and for the first time as well I wasn't alone on Valentine's night.
My housemate and I decided that we could do something fun for Valentine's so we baked some muffins and cookies and invited our friends over. It was fun!
Wish you all a great week

Love always,
Tommy

"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes" - Raul Solnado

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It's a brand new day and I am ready for it!

Hello bloggers and hello February! (I have just learned that I have been pronouncing February in the wrong way for a really long time...)

The one thing you should know about me regarding this week is that I am trying vigorously to become an emotionally strong person. I have always been fragile and I have always kind of accepted my fragility. Nevertheless, now I am looking forward to become not someone different but instead that someone more secure of herself. Not afraid of diving in and experiencing new and nerve-racking things. 

I have always spent a handful of time trying to relive a previous situation - bit by bit - moment after moment - changing it slightly more and more as I repeat in my mind all in the hope of finding some closure for the fact that it is over. 

I want to be that person who moves on with her life regardless what happened in the past. I want to be that girl who doesn't let anything nor anyone bring her down. I want to be that girl who isn't afraid of saying No or disappointing other people because that is a natural process and you can't avoid people's expectations of you being unmet. I don't want to be that teenager girl craving for attention and letting grudges guide her behaviour. I want to be and feel free and above all always choose my happiness over anything else.

I know I will never have full control of my emotions and hormones, but I also know that they happen within me so it is up to know how to react and model my behaviour according to that. So, from this moment on I have decided to prioritise my life the best I can, which means that priorities as my family and good friends will come on top along with my goals for my life. So, this is it, bloggers. My life is now completely friendship-focused and work-focused  and so far, it has been so much fun. 

It is a brand new day and I am ready for it.

Love always,
Tommy

PS. These are a few of my new friends. We met at a dinner party on Tuesday and afterwards we decided to go to the new building of our university (which is kind of amazing! I am in love with that building. It has everything you can imagine inside. No kidding! ) where we played some badminton! It was really fun!

We have some things scheduled for the future, as for instance, today we will be meeting up to have some hot chocolate and play some board games and tomorrow we will be going to a festival which celebrates the Chinese New Year of the Horse and later on the day, we will be meeting up again for some karaoke and dancing. It will be so much fun! Looking forward to it! 

Anyway, before such, I still have to survive a full day of classes today, working tomorrow morning and having classes in the afternoon.  Hope you're all as busy as I am so you don't have time to be let your emotions control you.
And yes, I look terrible in all pics. I-KNOW! -.-

"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes" - Raul Solnado

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The Fault in Our Stars

It is a scary ride, as you slowly approach the end of a book that is tearing your soul apart.


Having finished the book, I taste a bittersweet scent of emotions coming into my soul. As if my world as I used to see, had just collapsed on itself due to fiction while I insufficiently tried to keep myself grounded to it.
I drowned myself into my own tears as I acknowledged that happy endings are nothing but a past tense reality of history. I wonder how does it feel to write about love and endings. I do not wish to do it, it just disturbs me the thought that one's mind can bravely enough describe illness, love and endings without breaking its own heart in the process.
Some stories really do change you. They internally spread the wish to make your days countable and the hope to live up to the meaning of being alive and I hope I will.

Thank you John Green for describing beauty as I have never seen it before. Life through your eyes is nothing but a blissfully tragic and endless journey.

Love always,
Tommy

"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes" - Raul Solnado

PS. In the loving memory of the most endearing character I've ever met after Charlie - Gus. I tried to picture you as hot as Hazel described you. She's indeed something, buddy.
Even though I am terribly sad that the book ended so sadly, I knew it had to be that sad to be that good. Does it make any sense?

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Purpose.

It has come to my auditory sensors the following quote:
"What matters in life is not having a purpose, but yet, finding a purpose to live up to for"
And the reason why it clearly caught my eye is because it came to me as revealing as an insight does. As in the sense that unconsciously I believe I have devoted my entire life to finding that unreasonable yet captivating purpose to ceaselessly pursue and live my life up to.
Well, I don't believe I have found it yet. The thought of it makes me both happy and sad.
I don't think I have what it takes to find it quite yet. I like to imagine it being something stripped down simple that I have made use my entire life but truth is that I don't really know. As far as I am concerned, it could be anything truly.
Some tend to find this "gift" earlier than others. The reason behind this has to do with the fact that some need to find it earlier or/and some develop the skills needed to recognise it earlier as well. So, I don't think I am there quite yet. I like to believe that my mission on this earth as a living being won't be complete until the day I make my contribution to this world, until the day I leave my mark and memory splashed in someone's brain. And I can't wait for that day.

Love always,
Tommy

"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes" - Raul Solnado

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