Not all those who wander are lost.

You're slave of your desires. You're a slave of your thoughts and impulsive actions. You're a slave of the goodness inside of you. You're a salve of the hatred built up over the overs. You're a slave of your subjective impressions and distorted view of the world.
As you can observe there's so much, within and outside yourself, that can prisionate to be who you are. Don't let it stop you.
Run. Play. Jog. Meet. Dance.
The world is a book and you're just starting to read the first page. Don't stop there.
Fill the pages with glee and love.
Get rid of insecurities. Be the awesome self that you already are.

Hey People! Hope you're all alright. I just wanted to say that I'm really happy to be home and to be able to spend quality time with my folks. These pics were taken in Obidos, a town in the West of Portugal. As you can see, it is beautiful and so calm and warm. If I could, I would definitely live there. I was raised in a big metropole and years later, I still feel like I don't fit in here so to live in a smaller town might be it for me in the future.
Anywho hope you're all enjoying your summer vacations a lot as myself and I'll update you all very soon. Stay tuned!

Love always,
Tommy

"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes" - Raul Solnado

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After all this time, I'm still into you.

From time to time I have this recurrent dream. Some features change but it always ends up in me in the arms of this particular guy. You don't need to be a psychonalyst or freudian follower/lover to analyse such dreams. It is somewhat obvious. There is no deeper skin nor deeper meaning and it kills me to realise that regardless the transition of time, I still feel the same.
Yesterday I was chatting with a friend of mine from church about relationships. I don't have many friends at church and this gal is quite an interesting one even though we don't have much in common and she is a lot younger than me. I see her as my younger sister and she somehow always sees me as a role model but lately we haven't had mcuh time to hang out . We started by chatting about some of the, and I'm assuming more dramatic, current relationships' issues she is facing (how come a girl almost 5 years younger than me gets more action than I do? I feel like some old furniture. So not fair...) and progressively, in a slow pace and afterwards several and long descriptions of her romantic life, we moved to myself. I was updating her about some facts of my life in general - what I've been up to for the past months - and then when I got to the romance area, apartr from one or two events with that fella I talked about a while ago in England, nothing really has changed. I am still the same pathetic self at the same old place I was in since the last time we checked out with each other. It's funny, I remember her being 12 and asking me whether I liked this one guy and years after she is still questioning me the same about the same guy. When I tried to hide my embarassment from not having moving on, she said something as "There's always someone. Cut the chase. It's him, right?". Very awkwardly I nodded. Was I still into him? After all this time, after all the changes in my life, how come am I still into this guy?
All this came to me as a reality shock because it was nothing but the truth. Why am I not moving on as supposedly? why am I still chasing the same route when I already know its end?
The one thing I know. It's hard to let it go. And part of me may never do it.
When someone gets as deep to your skin as he did in mine and completely takes control of your unconscious mind and kinkery desires, it is hard to move on.
He is perfect to me. It  has been a really long time since everything started but my feelings have only grown for him ever since. I feel like I am in better place because I have more confidence but I am not still a pair to him. The only way to stop this trend is by ruining something I truly treasure. If somenthing was ever meant to be between us, it should have happened for a really long time now, right? How do you cope with this?

Love always,
Tommy



PS. I am falling in love with the bossa nova rhythm. As portuguese, I've always listened to Bossa Nova. But lately I've been researching more through spotify. For me, while listening to this, it reminds me of my childhood and happy moments. It feels like the warmness of sun rays touching your body while you let yourself swing through the blue waters of the ocean.  It's truly something, isn't it?

"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes" - Raul Solnado

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Quick Update!!!

Hello bloggers! Just a quick update of my summer vacation back at home. I have been exercising a lot and doing some precious reading and writing a lot too. I don't have much time now but you will hear from me very soon. Stay tuned!

Love always, 

Tommy

"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes" - Raul Solnado

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Coexisting with happiness :)

Hello netheads and Hello August, what's up?

I am going to start off by saying that I just love August. My favourite month of the year for several reasons, really and this year, it feels even more special because I get to be home for the entire month. How cool is that?? :D

August is pure awesomeness. The one month throughout the year at which you can give your mind the unlimited freedom to be creative as much as you desire and cross out some cool and interesting topics from your bucket list.

Between the many reason why I love August this much, I must highlight the lovely weather and the birthdays of people I tremendously love as my uncle dede whose birthday was on the 1st of August and my very best friend Dave whose brithday is still due to arrive.

So, this is it for me, bloggers. This is happiness. I couldn't be happier. I'm surrounded by people I love, in a country I feel I belong and doing things that make me happy. I am really happy. The only thing that could make this even more perfect was to be with my siblings right now. But you know what? I am certain that in a very near future we're going to be all together again.

So, yeah, it's all bloggers. I am happy.

I've been going out quite bit lately, doing some exercise, beach, cinema and I have as well some interesting plans in mind to put in action. Wait and you'll see. In the meantime, Be Happy. :D

Love always,

Tommy

"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes" - Raul Solnado

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