Sadness is sad...

Heey peeps! I feel very ashamed for my undenial and unreasonable absence since I came back to England and therefore I come onto you all, my beloved bloggers who follow me worldwide, to apologise. I've been going through a lot lately and though I do have time to write and I don't have any inspiration to add to your lives.
My life's a mess, my emotion overwhelmed, my goals apparently unreachable and I didn't see a point in writing.
Uni has started for over a month now and I haven't made a friend. I'm still living at the same place as before with the difference that I now I share it with a rat. Yes, that's correct. I have a rat as a roommate. Long story short, I saw a rat a few weeks ago in my apartment, I obviously overracted like a little girl then made myself enoughly strong to go after it, couldn't find it anywhere in the house but I'm sure it's arround making fun of me, that stupid bastard!
Besides that, I have been looking for a job, unfortunately nothing has appeared but since I'm incredibly tight with money, I have no choice but keep looking and hoping it will show up asap.
I'm driving crazy with my grandma and her stuff to do. During my entire life she never cared about and now expects me to do all these stuff like I owe her something. The truth is that I have repressed feelings for my grandma for things that happened in the past, I don't quite forgive her yet, but I won't bring this subjet to discuss now. And even with this not-so-welcoming past, I still want to be nice and help as much as possible but she is difficultating my life and I need to get some distance from her otherwise I might do or say something I don't want to.
My sister's going to Brazil next week what means that I won't be able to see her so soon. So, great!
I spent a lot of money in something very stupid so Im kinda tight.
For all reasons above plus my nostalgic inner personality, I'm feeling depressed and I can't get in mood to study since last Friday what is not good since I'm full of assigments to hand at the end of this week and beggining of next month.
I miss my best friend like hell. I miss my mommy and my daddy's security. I'm so sad my best pal, my sister, is not going to spend Christmas with me when I miss her companion so so much.
I kinda have to go to the gym because I haven't been going lately but I'm way to lazy to it.
Anyhow, Im gonna start doing something now and hopefully I'll say something later this week.
Sorry for not bringing good news.
See y'all next time
Tommy

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