Being as in love with you as I am

Hello stranger. Hope you're enjoying a good weekend and may you have a good continuation of it. 

Today I want to share a song I really fell in love with the first I heard. It's angels by the xx. 

This song went viral on the internet last year and people have been exposing their interpretations of it and I thought I could give it a try because it means so much to me, it reflects how I fell in love and it is perhaps the most straightforward and earnest declaration of love committed to song. Okay, without further delay. This is how I read this little piece of heaven: 

Overall, I think this song is just about the distinct phases of falling in love with someone (and that's probably why everyone can relate to it)

Phase One: The Meeting

"Light reflects from your shadow

It is more than I thought could exist

You move through the room

Like breathing was easy."

Firstly, you see someone and instantly you become smitten with them. Their every movement is magical. You even get surprised at how much you care about them and how comfortable you feel around them, so soon, so easily.

Phase Two: Getting To Know THEM

"And everyday

I am learning about you

The things that no one else sees

And the end comes too soon"

This describes the process of forming a deep connection with someone despite the cognitive dissonance of knowing that it won't last. You finally get to spend more time with that someone and start learning about them, knowing the things that no one else knows, seeing the things that no one else sees. And all that just makes you fall even more and understand their deeper selves. However, deep down you have that sense of yearning, you know that nothing lasts forever. It's like "dreaming of angels, and leaving without them."

Phase Three: Reciprocity/Commitment

"And with words unspoken

A silent devotion

I know you know what I mean

And the end is unknown

But I think I'm ready

As long as you're with me"

Remember the end of "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" where Joel and Clementine know how their relationship will end but they shrug it off and decide to be together anyway? That's the fear most of us have when we fall in love and are ready to commit to another person, but will it work? Will we hate each other? She's saying "We love each other, the future is scary but I'm okay to go forward as long as I love you as much as you love me."

So, summing up, you fall for someone, you feel like you're finally ready for this relationship but As you get more attached to them, all these doubts pop into your mind. You're afraid it won't last. You're afraid he won't be as in love with you as you are with him. You're afraid they will break your heart into several parts someway somehow. You're afraid they will leave you... they will get bored of you. 
It's that doubt and fear - but also there's hope and willingness to try "And the end is unknown but I think I'm ready; As long as you're with me"

Love always, 

Tommy

PS. Part of me really wants to believe that it's not unrequited love that I'm experience that he is as in love with me as I am with him but everything points out in the opposite direction. It's okay, though. I'm finally feeling like getting over him. I'm finally accepting everything as not meant to be. I'm finally dreaming of finding my true angel :3

"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes" - Raul Solnado