We'll be fine.

In my first post of 2014, (it still feels weird saying it, though, I think I've already got used to it) I talked about not making resolutions for this year before finishing the ones I proposed to fulfill last year because I like the idea of keeping my word, especially to myself. So, Yes, I am still ALL up for it, however there will be some slight changes to the original plan in order to frame it into this futuristic reality we're all living in. 

Lately...well, some of you may probably know that already... well, lately I've been struggling a lot about whether should I or should I not take an entire year for a placement. The idea does not appeal me at all, even though it isn't a year completely lost because if you do good there, you may safeguard yourself a place in there plus no university accepts students for a master degree or will I be able to find a part-time job related to my course if I don't have any work experience to fill my curriculum with. So, after months of research and deep thinking, I have managed to find a solution that works for me and will still make me look  like a pretty good applicant for a master at any university in the UK. Drums, please..... A Summer Internship!!  (pretty obvious, uh? I'm such a slowpoke sometimes)

I've looked for a few already online - some of them are incredibly exciting and tremendously expensive - but none of them really fits my possibilities...On the good side, I've read somewhere around the web that there are some free or cheap internships that undergraduates as myself can find. So I'll keep on looking and I'll make one of my top priorities from now on to find a good summer internship in which I can stay for a couple months and learn retain loads of good and important moments from. It would be dreamy if  I could go abroad too. I'm all about crossing border lines. If I already know English, I am confident enough to go anywhere in the world (assuming I am accepted) and make a difference there too. 

Since it will be a short time internship, I plan too to do some voluntary work in the way. Learn as much as I can and make myself the right person for the right opportunity.

So, I am adding to my last year's resolution list: Summer Internship Program and Voluntary Work. 

Because all of this requires some financial stability, I will be desperately looking for a part time position as well as applying for Merit Bursaries (I don't know how they call it here, to be honest, but it should be something around that, right?). I just feel so terribly bad to think that my parents have to work their asses off because I have decided that I wanted to study abroad. I need to cross my independence goal off my resolution list now in order to feel okay with myself. I am an adult and I can provide for myself as well as make things happen for me the way I want them to be. As long as I keep being brave enough to go for it and hard-worker enough to make it last.

All of this is really exciting and I'm so happy to be sharing it with you folks. It is a great way to kick off 2014 for me and to Mk as well. May it be unique. May it be fun for all of us.
I may not be rich nor outstandingly gifted nor enchantedly beautiful but I must have something within me that is really good because I am surrounded by awesome people and they all love me (or at least, I hope they do). So, as long as I keep putting my trust on the right people and believing in potential, I should be fine.

I am a few hours away (a bit over 24 hours) from coming back to England and I feel both excited and melancholic at the same time. 

I can't simply put my mind into thinking that I won't see my family for another large period of time. And my best friend as well. I really love that guy. He brings the best in me and he makes me feel so special in so many ways. That is the one thing I mostly miss in England. When I am surrounded by so much excellence and talent, I miss feeling that I too have something valuable to bring into the table. He's beautiful inside and out and I hope he finds a girl who will be able to see all of it with clarity. But foremost, I hope he finds a way of feeling fulfilled doing what he does and I hope he manages to find love and meaning to the path he's chosen to pursue. No one doubts he's gonna make it because it is as certain as he is a good person. 

We'll be fine, dave. Trust me, we will be fine. 

Love always, 

Tommy

Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes" - Raul Solnado