Who knows how long I've loved you, You know I love you still. Will I wait a lonely lifetime? If you want me to I will.

I cannot tell you how time does it but things really do get better with it. Time really takes care of everything, all the drama, all the confusion, all the despair, all the immense loneliness somehow disappears.
When you're feeling like falling apart, just as I was a few days ago, just give it some time and you will feel better. I kow, it sounds insane but on time's terms, EVERYTHING gets better. Right now I am starting to believe that maybe I am standing today where I am supposed to be and I am becoming the person I am meant to be.
Meeting Vik, the closer to a friend, I've met in university did help a lot. Just having someone to talk to, once in a while, is nice. Plus she's so lovely and kind. And sooo pretty, OMG, it must be hard being that pretty nowadays haha. But anyway she is  a very interesting person to be around and sometimes some loveliness brightens your day and I was missing it. Well, uhmn I am in uni's library for the fourth time this week which means I have been here all week long, days, afternoons and nights. And I am trying to get on this as soon as possible and manage to do it in a more relaxed way, though I only have six days to submit it. This one and another one. That other one, I know kind of what I have to do, just do not know how to start it. I'll make some reserach as soon as I am done with this one and grandma's medical appointments. She's been feeling unwell so I have been taking here to the hospital quite frequently. I think it is just a cold and she will get better very soon hopefully. She's indeed a tough woman, I feel sorry for anyone who gets on her way lulz.
This week, for a change, I've felt the warmer weather I've ever felt here in North England since I arrived here for the first time. A sunny and clear sky day. It does agree with the all the nature we have around here. This should happen for frequently anyway, I am already thankful so cheers mother nature, you rock!

Better focus on writing up my qualitative essay,
You all have a nice day,
and I've missed writing here, I know it have been barely 3 days but I did miss it, that's the truth. This is home to me.

Love always,
Tommy

Friends will always be Friends, No matter what! (There are people who call it the friendzoned theme, I see why lulz but yeah, true if you're in friendzone for a long time better start realizing that friends will always be just friends)


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MIssion accomplished, missy!

Not much to tell you guys. I've been crazy trying to finish some assignments on time. Slept 3 hour in 3 days and made 2 meals in those 3 days too. pretty exquisite, uh?
Anyway, now it's half finished and I can rest for this nightt weeeee Mission accomplished Miss Galhardo. You did welll.
Love always,
yours crazily in love
Tommy



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I am an island

What all these months in England thought me, is that no matter what you're going through is always better if you have people to share it with.

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Happy 3rd Anniversary!

HAPPY 3rd ANNIVERSARYYY!!! I expected so much for this day and now tthat has finally arrived I do not even feel like writing about it. But yeah, well done for me, for not making a final decision of it, every time I delete it Mk. It was more than a couple, I must say. I have pretty bad moods sometimes lulz. Well done for you all for spending your free time on the internet and finding my little place. Mk is the best I ever created and honestly I am not one to create very creative and cool things but this one, I love it, am proud of it and wish for more 3 years of practice. Stay tuned bloggers!

Love always,
baby Tommy!

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The first.

Love is something we expect: the first kiss, the first love, the first time, first I love you. We think of it as something that will changes us forever. Something that we will cherish every moment and never, by any circumstance, let go. We are wrong, at some point we will have to let it go and what does really changes us is the loss of love. It changes us in unpredictable ways and it is as well what makes of us who we are today. It is the loss of our innocence that will lead us to take the first step in adulthood, to find our inner voice and to raise new paths, opportunities and dreams to follow.

I am no longer that silly shy new girl in the class that is just looking forward to fit in. I say screw people’s opinions, screw fitting in, screw being different, screw loving someone who does not love you back, screw it all. I am not looking for someone or to be somewhere, I am looking for myself – and that, for the first time in a long time, may be a fun thing to do.

I am nice girl with some sense of humor who happens to like people right away (I am trying to change this last one, but I cannot simply accept that all people are just bad or have ulterior motives while meeting me) and there is absolutely nothing wrong with me. And I wanted to post this so whenever I feel like the world has nothing wrong and I am the one screwing it, I can look to what I've written and see how certain of myself I felt that day and the world is the one messed up. There is a lot of doubt that me be raised against me, why I am so weird, why push most people away from my life, why I feel so insecure in so basic situations, I do not know, I do not care, BUT there is absolutely nothing wrong with me and I know it. 

Love always, 
Tommy

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22nd: 43!

Happy Birthday Mommy!!! Eu amo-te bilhões e adorava conseguir expressar a imensa falta que fazes, todos os dias (Especialmente a tua comida!!!) Espero que o teu dia tenha sido fantástico e tem um excelente jantar de família, como sempre. vemo-nos em breve :D
Sempre a tua bebé,
B

PS. Mommy, eu fiz um bolo chocolate para ti e agora vou come-lo por ti, mauahahah :D
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Insomnia....

still up and wondering how long can one be up without falling apart? it's been forever since i slept roughly 5 hours and  im feeling incredibly tired so i cant study and barely type and there's simply nothing interesting or amusing on tv at this time so, im just doing the usual, searching for new artists, listening to covers of songs i love and thinking about life. i hate thinking about life, because it makes me moody. according to the memory i decide to recall i feel happy or sad, in a blink of an eye everything is either darker or brighter and i dont want that. so im just trying not to listen to potentially sad songs. it's hard because i relate to every single song. jeeez
i was watching some mormon messages on youtube too. i like seeing all young people talking how do they find happiness in the journey because is something i struggle with and i love knowing new tips to make it possible. dont worry. im still in a good place, just more tired and stressed out with my deadlines - i havent finished any of my assignments. things dont look very promising at that department but i'll keep trying to sleep. for at least 4 hours. my body would really appreciated some rest. i never felt so heavy and ive been 'heavier' soo...
anyway, i think all this, being in a good place, stressed out, extremely tired; it all steams from this insomnia.

Talk soon, hopefully.
Love always.
Tommy

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I've found my home.

This is really hard to explain, but, I'll give my best shot. These past couple years, maybe three years, I've been crazily emotional. I think it has to be with my adolescent years and falling in love for the first time and making all these big decisions about my future as early as it was and etc. I don't even know how people did not get tired of me, I guess they really like me. Anyhow, I've  been really needy and needy and gosh needy as hell. And daydreaming and wishing and writing love poems and little songs and heats and all those things (I have to say, now I find it all very pathetic). However someway, somehow lately I've been feeling different. I can actually suppress my feelings and don't let 'em control anymore. I'm overwhelmed, I feel sober, secure, capable. Better. Nothing new nor different happened. I am still the same me, but I'm in a good place. In a place, I feel I'm enough. I just feel okay and like claiming to the world that this is my life and I am ready to rule the world. I can do my best. I can be the best. I am a talented (still don't know what my talent is, but I am a hard-worker), bright, secure of herself, lovely and beautiful young woman with a brilliant future ahead.

It's where you go when you're alone
It's where you go to rest your bones
It's not just where you lay your head
It's not just where you make your bed
As long as we're together, does it matter where we go?

(This song reminds me of Bon Iver and Birdy's songs. She has an amazing pure and angelical voice. It's lovely to listen to. Don't you agree?)

Love always,
Tommy

PS. This maybe the lack of sleep talking but I really hope to stay like this for a long time. I need myself in this position to move on with my life. For the first in a long time too, my nights are not the best of my days, I've been having nightmares and weird scary dreams, but I'm over them. I don't have to be scared. I trust my inner goddess, please trust yours. You'll be fine. It may take a while for you to feel okay but you will and you gonna be Big. Bigger than anyone ever thought.

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Writing till Dawn!

I'm not a people's person. However, I'm getting to a critical point that I miss people, people in general. I miss being around them and acknowledging their presence near me.Talking to myself is getting weirder. Sometimes I think of something in my head that I always find hilarious and then I say it out loud and start laughing very hard for a long time and then finally, when all laughter is gone, the silence comes and the knowledge of the absence of anyone else besides me, too. And it's weird.
Most of the times, when that happens, I just turn on the tv and listen to the sound coming out from whatever is on, not really paying attention to the words, just listening to the sound of different voice than mine. It's weird, not sad, just weird. But well, I guess that'll be the way things will be for a unknowing period of my life here in england, so I better get used to it.
BTW, my voice is freaking amazing, specially when I'm singing which pretty much all the time. HAHA
Not really, I don't sing while I'm dancing. I'm always very focused on my weird runway moves. shaking that booty! lol I may the worst singer and dancer you've ever seen, like for real, but I definitely do it with a lot of passion. They are weapons and shield against loneliness.

Love always,
 Tommy

PS. I was watching this video of a few acquaintances partying hard at a very known disco and overrated (In my opinion) disco in Lisbon. There's a part of me that wishes I could been like this, so carefree and young. But then there's another part which dominates me, that knows I could never be that someone who goes out at night and party hard and feels free. I did it and never felt free, at any moment. Probably because I don't drink and when you go out with people who do, you end up having to carry them back home ( that happened on my finalists' trip back in 2011).
So, I don't know. I will never drink so I guess going out to the cinemas or hanging around the beach will be my best shots to achieve this youth's carefree sensation. Anyway, 5 in the morning and I am still doing a report, research, partially writing an essay, watching 2 broke girls and blogging! I'm on fire lulz. and I'm almost falling back. I better finish this before my batteries die. Talk tomorrow/today pals! I love you all

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Get back here you stupid bird so I can love you!

Feeling GREEEAAAAT just because.

PS. Love you Shelly <3 and="" awesome="" awesomeness="" be="" day="" every="" inspires="" keep="" me="" single="" to="" up="" your="">

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Trust the wise man within ♥

In life, many times, we are confronted with times that as much as we may like to avoid them, important decisions must be taken. To do so, our first instinct is to ask the opinions of our closest friends and familiars and sometimes even strangers we just met, a colleague we talk once in a while, a long-time neighbour, basically anyone who can do it for us. And this step, is definitely a very important step in the decison making process, because it help us to broad our vision of the subject in question by analysing different approaches to it. However, we must not stop here. Jamais, as the french people would say. Don't ever let others choose the pavement you will step on. When you are the one with the last word, even if you're about to do something you should not, the fact you did it, it's your responsability, it will help you to grow up as a person in a near future, believe me. Taking your own decision means, most of the times if nothing else is influencing you such as alcohol or addictive substances, it means to have a clear conscious of the implications of your decision and accepting it as a whole. Means knowing what is essentially for YOU, for your future, for your goals, for your heart, YOU not everyone else. Not everybody will be happy with it, and including you sometimes, but it doesn't mean, it is not the right thing to do for YOU, at this precise moment. Sit back, list all pros and cons and go for it. There is no one in this world who knows what best for YOU than your wise man/woman within, your inner god/goddess. Deep inside we know what we desire for ourselves, above all fears and consequences to come, we know, we just know it. It is there, right in front of our eyes and sometimes even written, as in my case for instance. And gladly once you've taken your decision, if it was taken according to what YOU want and need, you will feel the steam letting off your shoulders and lighting up your soul. Trust your guts, your wise man within, you're going to be just fine, love. I'm sure of it. I trust in you. You will find your way. Deep down I can see you will be part of those who greater thing than these we all see today, shall do in the future. Great things are promised to you if you have the power to risk I just know it and You'll see. 

FYI, The only easy decisions in life are the one we've already taken before, like having cereals for breakfast instead of bread. It's a silly example, but it is quite clear and easy to follow. Nothing will ever worth without some conflit in the middle. The fight makes the hero. Not the opposite, ever.

Love always, 

Tommy

PS. 6 days to my mommy's birthday. I hate not being around to celebrate it with her. She's so out of this world amazing. However, I have a small surprise planned as always ;) I truly adore surprising people and seeing their faces lol. And the making of too. I always fall in love for the things I do and wish to have a copy for me haha. Anyways, I always put my heart in every inch of it and that's what makes of it so special for me and for the person, hopefully. 8 days to our official 3rd birthday. Official because I did not post on the first day I've created Mk. It was on the 20th I think. And prior to Mk, I had another Mk, with the same style but different goals. I wanted to be someone I will never be and the result was lack of inspiration most of the days. Anyhow it gave the experience I needed to start Mk and I'm so glad I did it. 5 years blogging and still kicking some asses haha This is only the beggining of a lifetime task - to write in order to enlight my thoughts and the minds of those who are willing to know me or going through the same. After all we're all differently the same. 

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In music, even silence has its own rhythm.

“Good friends are really hard to find. They gotta be there for you even when you’re wrong. But, at the same time, they can’t just tell you what you wanna hear, they’ve also gotta be willing to tell you what you need to hear. That’s the real reason true love’s so hard to find. Because the basis of love is friendship. And friendship is really, really rare.”

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Happy Endings I've always loved watching Happy Endings because it's simply hilarious and fun and I was watching an repeared episode a few moments ago and spotted this adorable quote about the foundations of love, that must be friendship. Both rare, both essential. Well, I agree so I wanted to share with you guys.  Good Weekend to you all, Love always, Tommy PS. My mom's brithday as well as our 3rd birthday of filling online pages of non-sense texts, are coming! weeeee! :) "Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes" - Raul Solnado

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We accept the love we think we deserve

I don't want to be somebody's crush. I want people to like the real me. And I want those people to tell me what they like in me. And right after it, I want them to show me, in a physical way, in a way no doubts can be raised. Otherwise, whatever you do, can't be counted as love. At least, not the love I think I deserve.

Love always,
Tommy

PS. Yesterday was Valentine's day and even though, I've written a lot about it in my journal, I don't think I know a thing about it, at least not the valentine's day people celebrate nowadays. What I believe now, as much as my heart may say differently, as long as you don't experience the returned kind of love, the one we all deserve, you never truly feel the whole love thing and understand its boundaries or its pleasure forms... Changing of subject, I was watching the perks of being a wallflower, the movie, for the second time as in the first time my parcial decision, due to have read the book 5 times, made impossible of just watching it, without judging and comparing. Well, this time, I did it and I'm so glad I did it. Not as good as the book, which is beyond words of so much awesomeness together, but nicely done too. Anyhow, right to the point I was listening to a dialogue between Sam and Charlie, when she's about to go away to her soon-to-be university campus, and she was telling Charlie how much she wished he's done something. Not just telling her that he cares about her. But demonstrate it. If he really liked her, all way along, he should've done something. And I thought to myself, how true that is. None of us want a theoretical love. We all deserved to feel loved in all possible ways. The knowledge of it, itself has absolutely no power if there's no intended action to follow it.

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snowfall *.*

So, today was this horrible weather with the snowfall and crazy wind and all, therefore I decided to stay home and take this opportunity to fool around with the snow at my backyard. I thought about doing a snowman, but then again, it was really bad weather, and could barely touch the snow for longer than 10 seconds. Anyhow, I ended up doing a sort of private photoshoot and wanted to share some of the photos in a place other than facebook and nothing better than Mk. I'm not much of a model, I tend to look odd in pictures, but well I hate much more the idea of not having, let's call, physical evidence of important times of my life, and this one maybe one of them since I'm trying to make a sort of statement to the world and myself as well, that I can take care of myself and future. So, above you can check the best photos I took today and if you're willing too, you can listen to this awesome, actually one of my favourite of the band, song  about snow. Hey oh! 

Sleep tight

Love always, 

Tommy

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My inner self drives me crazy!

I wish there was a sort of substance, not drugs or alcohol or coffe or anything similarly addictive, that could help me loose a little bit of my inner self and get out of my mind, which I may say, is sometimes a potentially harmful place to be in, and be able to just enjoy or rest, peacefully. It's like, I have this enormous amount of information floating in my head every second, wondering about everything and questioning everyone and sometimes it really drives me crazy. Well, I guess this happens to everyone, however, I still wish I could just sit back and shut it up for a few moments and rest.
Nighty night
Love always,
Tommy

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It's for your soul, for your beautiful big brown eyes that I vow to love you, forever.

8 in the morning and I'm on my way to university. Wondering how I will manage to do everything without failing or falling apart. If I do survive, I will let you all know about it. The day didn't start at its best. I just missed my train because my bus got stuck in transit. It's my fault anyway. I should've taken the earlier bus.
Anyway, we will talk better soon.
Listen to this adorable Foo fighters song
We're just ordinary people, you ± me. Time will turn us into statues, eventually.
http://m.youtube.com/?client=mv-google&rdm=mijgfzs8#/watch?v=58xeiJ3dpDk
Have a nice had-working week,
Love always,
Tommy

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Can't be tamed!

Last year when I arrived to Portugal for the Christmas' holidays,  I decided to do this progressive brushing keratin treatment thing. Summing up is a treatment that leaves your hair straight (aka not so frizzed and curly in my case. If ever straight at most for a couple hours) for a longer time. If you recall, I had my hair braided before it which is my lazy way of taking care of my hair and saves me loads and loads of time. 

It was the first time I've done it and since it was working so great with my sister, I thought I'd give it a try. And as matter of fact, it was working perfectly until I arrived to England. It's this weather, always rainy or snowy that makes my hair go crazy, literally. I can't find a way to tame it. It's always curly and each day more and more frizzed.  I wish I had braided my hair instead.

This is a really silly post. But I just wanted to say that and take this opportunity to share this song.

You all have a nice pre-evening, evening and night

Love always,

~Tommy

PS. My right eye is still looking a bit weird after what happened. Doesn't hurt or anything but looks weird, meh!

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I am a ghost

Leaving university at quarter past eight pm on a saturday night. Carrying a 15 kilos bag and arriving at the rail station while all young women are getting prepared to rock on the night, all very beautifully dressed up - mostly short dresses and high heels boots - and very well accompanied too, I must say, leaves me a lil bit sad. Not sad, sad just a lil bit sad and jealous. And all the couples going out for a drink and all groups of single ladies or guys entering karaoke bars at leeds city centre, makes me realise I don't really fit here or anywhere and sometimes I wish I did. My entire life has been observng, wondering, writing down, wandering around lisening to music and waiting to be noticed and I still haven't been. I'm a ghost, truth be told.

Love always,
Tommy

PS. I'm thinking about going to London in my easter break since I can't go to Portugal. Anyway. I can't wait, I wanna visit all those places I had not the opportunity to go on any of my previous visits and revisit a few too #3
Once I'm done with all these assignments I'll post here my itinerary to you all *.*
And by the way, I'm just sayin' but would be a good principle to learn your own language before trying to learn others. Not talking to someone in specific, just all teenagers who want to learn different language but don't make a clue how to write properly their own.

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the story of my life -.-

It's so sad when you're doing this awesome personal experiment and having very interesting results and you want to tell your friends all about it and there is not simply one of them online -.- -.-
FYI, If I ever get rich because of this and I'm not giving credit to any of you, unf.
My friends are weird. I guess it makes sense since I'm a weirdo too, but I would like to have some ordinary friends for these situations, for instance....

Love always,
Tommy

PS. Check my earlier post!!! and btw, is it me, or the acoustic version of a lot of songs are better than the produced ones? Maybe it's just me, but I always like the acoustic versions more.
This one of those songs that doesn't matter if it's acoustic or not. You just sit down and listen to it and see our life pass through your eyes. And it's not sad, just a peace of mind. BTW, if you want to look over the lyrics, you can actually relate to my earlier post. If you don't get out the friendzone, you will end up having an almost lover and having to say goodbye to them. It sucks, please take my word. I'm still trying to do it. It really hurts. I don't think you ever overcome an almost lover. You will always loved them, it is just the way it is. However it doesn't mean you won't have to say goodbye and move on, in a physical way. .


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Valentine's plan: Leave the friendzone!

My third post in less than 24 hours, I'm on fire today lulz

Hi ordinary people out there, last night before writing my post, I came across this very interesting article that I think most people have at least an experience to compare to this. It's about the Friendzone. Sometimes when you like someone and you want to invest in them, you assume the first step in order to build a relationship here is to become friends with that person. And well, I'm not telling you're wrong but most of the times, things don't work out that way (if they do, mostly in the movies, sorry bro!). Why? Very good question random folk. First, because you do not know if the target of your little and daily crescent crush feels the same way as you do. Second, if they don't, you want them to look at you as a 'love interest' not as friend. And last but not least, third. because once you're in the friendzone, is very hard to escape from it and the longer you stay the worst it gets. I have a personal experience of my own and I decided to give up, because I just stayed there for too long. I don't think it was never meant to be anyway. It started the worst way possible, it will end probably the same way, tho I hope to save to the friendship, I still don't know if I can. Anyway, I don't want the same for any of you, adorable bloggers.  So, lesson number one, starting a possible love relationship with a friendship may be a spoiler... I'm not an expert on the matter, so I bring to you all the following article which highlights very good points and I think you will all appreciate it. Take a look at it and let me know if you ever been there or if you found any of these advices useful.  

Nighty night and TGIF( aka THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY)

Love always, 

Tommy

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What is "The Friend Zone"?

For those who don't know the term, "the friend zone" refers to a situation where one individual in afriendship develops more intense feelings and wants to become "more than friends" with the other person. More often than not, the other person is unaware of the friend's desires and quite happy in the friendship-only arrangement. As a result, the person is "stuck" in the "friend zone", unable to transition from just friend to girlfriend or boyfriend.

How to Escape the Friend Zone

To escape the friend zone, you must first realize that all relationships involve negotiation - and you are attempting to "re-negotiate" the current exchange. Essentially, you want "more" from the other person. Most likely, you are already giving too much and what you really want is for them to balance the scales.

Fortunately, there are a few influence principles that do indeed balance the scales. Using those principles, we can devise a few steps to get you out of the friend zone:

1) Be Less Interested - The relationship is already imbalanced because you value it more than the other person. Take a step back. Being "needy" is no way to negotiate. Desperate people end up with what others give them, not what they want. So, be less interested and ready to walk away if you don't get the relationship you want. Those who are more willing to walk away have the power to guide the relationship (called the "Least Interested Principle" - Waller & Hill, 1951).

2) Make Yourself Scarce - Spend some time away from your "friend" and do less for them. If they truly appreciate you, then your absence will make them miss you and want you more. This is the principle of "Scarcity" - where people value something more when it is rare or taken away from them (Cialdini, 2009). When you are no longer around as much or tending to their needs, they will most likely feel the loss. This will increase their desire for you and their willingness to meet your needs back. If it doesn't, then they are just "not that into you"...and don't value you. In that case, find another "friend".

3) Create Some Competition - Go out and make some other "friends" of the sex you are attracted to. Broaden your social network. Then, talk about these new friends with the friend you desire. Competition and a littlejealousy are another great way to develop "Scarcity" (Cialdini, 2009). People value more what they think they might lose. If you are "busy" with other people, you might just find your friend a bit more eager and motivated for your time and attention. If you don't see any "jealousy" though, then they might not want to be "more than friends". In that case, set your sights on someone new!

4) Get Them To Invest - Ask your friend to do things for you. Contrary to popular belief, people like you more when THEY do favors for you, rather than when you do the favor for them (for more, see here). This is called the Ben Franklin Effect (Jecker & Landry, 1969). The more they invest in the relationship, the more you will mean to them. So, stop doing favors...and start asking for them. Get them to give you a ride, study with you, fix something, etc. Heck, even asking them to get you a soda from the fridge has an impact!

5) Be Rewarding - Don't forget to be grateful and reward your friend when they behave as you desire. After they are good to you, remember to be good to them back. Being attentive and affectionate, only when they do what you like, encourages them to continue those behaviors (for more, see here). Also, ignoring them when they behave badly helps to reduce unwanted behaviors (for more, see here). Always remember to keep anenvironment of mutual gratitude flowing too (see here).

Taking It From There

Applying the steps above will balance the value and exchange in the relationship. It will highlight how truly valuable, desirable, and important you are to your "friend". Essentially, it will raise your status and worth in their eyes. You might even be able to pick up the change in their body language when you are around.

Article taken from: http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-attraction-doctor/201112/escape-the-friend-zone-friend-girlfriend-or-boyfriend

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My fake twin ♥

I really miss you, you know, and I hope you miss me too. I Just wanted to say that. And FYI, I'm still very pissed at you for leaving me here by myself. However, truth be told, I miss you more and am honestly still learning how to live far from your enchanting stupidity and sarcasm.

PS. Don't tell anyone, but I'm saving money to visit you in foresseable future, hopefully ♥

A reminder of old times and your still, very alive, crush on JT - he's so hot. still so hot!


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"Ladies and Gentlemen: 20 000 views", she announced cheerfully!

Hi everyone. Just to let you all know that we've reached the 20 000 views on this blog. It's pretty amazing and hopefully not half of it belong to me. Well, let me explain, sometimes, like today for instance, I feel like writing to let off steam - many of those posts I never got to post, someday I may - and I'm not home, so I log on to a university pc and access MK from there or access from my precious (that's the name I've given to my adorable tablet samsung galaxy 8.9) and I believe all these times also counted for this number. This doesn't happen very often to be honest, but just to make it clear, I'd say that a small part of this, about a 100 or less may belong to me :p
I know there are a lot of accesses from the USA, Brazil and Italy. Countries where I've never been and am eager to visit very soon. So, thank you all from there who keep visitng me and some of you who shared my page on your personal pages. Very nice from you all. And I know you all must feel you know me very well, I bet you do better than some friends I have, but don't take it for granted. If you know me so well, you must know as well that I'm not one to enjoy homeostais. Never did, may never will. Therefore, stay tuned, some changes are coming, nothing big really, still trying to manage with last one, but I have few plans of my own that I haven't told anyone about it and you will be the first to know as usual :)
Anyhow, this views thing doesn't really matter to me. It's just a way to keep celebrating something and spreading happiness in my own weird way. After all, are the little things what make the big ones look unimportant and trivial and Mk is all about lil things.
An update and glimpse of today and these last days as well, I would say is a hard-worker and tired Tommy, essentially. Today started an ordinary tiring day and somehow I'm finishing in a way I'm not particularly enjoying... I always manage to put myself down...Don't feel like talking about it and since we're kinda celebrating here, wouldn't be very polite from my part to spoilt it, isn't it?
20 000 views bloggers. It's a big fat number. Many thanks peeps and I love you all. And I feel like this blog is my sanctuary, my home, my best friend, the one I can say anything in any tone but it will never turn its back on me and I appreaciate it. I've never been one to have many friends, just a few, and somehow lately some of those I used to count as friends are getting tired of me, I guess. I didn't do anything I believe, they just got tired and I don't blame them for it, I would too if I weren't myself.
Anyway, Valentine's day, our 3rd aniversary and mommy's birthday on Feb 22nd, are coming too :D So, we'll keep the celebration theme around here for a while. February is indeed quite a month.
Cheers people, from the bottom of my heart, I love this blog. I love you all. It feels like home to me.
I hope you're not too bored of reading me
Love always,
Tommy

PS. Please value yourself. Don't let people bring you down. Don't let your emotions ruin your night. You're stronger than the environment. Stronger than the situation life have put you through and that's why you're there. You're all diamonds inside. I'm sure of it.

"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes" - Raul Solnado

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What does a girl need to do to get lucky around here?

The thing about the proximity of valentines and the anxiety rounding it, beyond the adverts spread all over  the media and the constant sale of red-hearted gifts, it is the crankiness of all the single ladies. It's like other people's happiness makes you feel less of person and easily gets you very pissed. I used to be like that, an indeed cranky single lady, but somehow I understood that it was all jealousy towards their happiness speaking out for me. My happiness should not be measured by other people's sadness or vice versa. I must be my own happiness source in order not to suffer unecessarily. And if I were in a relationship at the moment, I am most certainly sure that I would appreacite some patience from other people. The less I could've seen them, the better. So that I coud snuggle , cherish and express in my way my desires towards my partner as I much as I feel like doing so. Therefore, to all single ladies out there, which includes MOI, chill out and embrace the cause. Your day will come too and I'm sure you will appreciate the consideration you're giving now. I believe everyone's meant to find his/her other half and you and I, we are not exception. I don't refer to boys, because honestly don't know how these things work with you pals. Do you experience some jealousy too? Let me know. 

I do and this dryness is killing. Mama wants some candy too :p

I just thought I'd passed by to write this to you all. Not very proudly, I add that this won't be my only post about valentines. As you know, I'm one to change my mind very quickly according to the latest events in my life. And when I do it, oh boy, I'm quite stubborn about my reasons. 

To all you wondering how to surprise your partner (btw, lucky you pals!) in the most expected and predictable day of the yearthe best you can do is stick to what the day is about you know. And I'm sure that will be unpredictable and lovely in enough quantity to your partner, if they love back.
To all broken hearts, it's time to move on. It will take time and some crying and desire to go back in the middlem but deep inside you know this is not your valentine. 

These are my thoughts for this rainy Monday, WHY ENGLAND WHY?

Love always

Tommy

"You could be my unintended choice to live my life extended. You could be the one i'll always love. You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions. You could be the one i'll always love. I'll be there as soon as i can. But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life i had before."

"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes" - Raul Solnado

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welcome to the next stage!

"A Felicidade está acima de todos os ideais" it is true. I don't know why people, why do I try so hard to be unhappy. It just like you're looking for flaws in a sunrise, when it's beautiful and clean and fresh and there is absolutely nothing wrog with it, except your capability of keep looking. I'm not making a lot of sense. I just wanted to say that. And it's late like 4 in the morning and I have to be awaken in a few hours and I've just started to my criminology assigment for real. Or at least I thought I did. I don't know. I was watching social network for the first time, it is crazy to believe that Mark was able to create this over 25 billion dolars project that is facebook. I mean, it is fantastic nd the most amazing thing in all of this, is that he did, I mean the whole idea of comparing and all, because of an ex-girlfriend he was still in love and at same time angry about. The best and worst idea always come from when we are more vulnerable and feeling exposed and and trrying to make a statement to the world. You know. Maybe you don't, but I don't think that really matters anyway. People hold a lot of bitterness in themselves sometimes for the most stupid reason. Letting feelings, people go is a good thing to do sometimes. Sometimes it must be done in order to move on, to survive really.
Mark in order to create facebook he had to prioritize his time better, and so will I. It's like I always spend my time in a superfluous stuff. I'm trying to level up my english so I guess I have to start to level up my reading and friends connection too. I may do it. But for now, I will focus on my crime assignment and I will let you know, today in a more reasonable hour, if I was finally able to do it. Not that you care, but I want so. And I figured out since this is my blog and none of you, knows my address, I won't have much problems even in the future, for telling you this.

Love always,
Tommy

"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes" - Raul Solnado

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I'm walking on sunshine whooaaa!

So, I guess you all or some or anyone who read the earlier post or no one, doesn't matter really, noticed how I was feeling pretty down yesterday. However, thanks to some great advices and ego boots from a great friend of mine, she's really awesome, I really love her, I did manage to understand my situation as a whole and I decided to appreacite all the good things I've won and saw and am stll enjoying, since I've arrived for the first time in Royalty lands. It's crazy, I'm following my child's dreams and it's amazing. Not everybody can say that. It's truly awesome and I will enjoy every single bit of this sunshine. So, here's my happiness to you all. Hope you all do appreaciate what you have and once you've done, I'm sure you will see the chaos you think you've turned your life into, as an opportuniy to do better, this time!


I feel alive, i feel the love, i feel the love
That's really real
I'm on sunshine baby,
I'm on sunshine baby, oh


Nighty night peeps
Love always,
Tommy

PS. My problems are pretty much still very alive but I can't let myself go because of it. I'm an independent grown woman, very determined and passionate about life in general and walking on sunshine, whoaaaa!


"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes" - Raul Solnado

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