We accept the love we think we deserve

I don't want to be somebody's crush. I want people to like the real me. And I want those people to tell me what they like in me. And right after it, I want them to show me, in a physical way, in a way no doubts can be raised. Otherwise, whatever you do, can't be counted as love. At least, not the love I think I deserve.

Love always,
Tommy

PS. Yesterday was Valentine's day and even though, I've written a lot about it in my journal, I don't think I know a thing about it, at least not the valentine's day people celebrate nowadays. What I believe now, as much as my heart may say differently, as long as you don't experience the returned kind of love, the one we all deserve, you never truly feel the whole love thing and understand its boundaries or its pleasure forms... Changing of subject, I was watching the perks of being a wallflower, the movie, for the second time as in the first time my parcial decision, due to have read the book 5 times, made impossible of just watching it, without judging and comparing. Well, this time, I did it and I'm so glad I did it. Not as good as the book, which is beyond words of so much awesomeness together, but nicely done too. Anyhow, right to the point I was listening to a dialogue between Sam and Charlie, when she's about to go away to her soon-to-be university campus, and she was telling Charlie how much she wished he's done something. Not just telling her that he cares about her. But demonstrate it. If he really liked her, all way along, he should've done something. And I thought to myself, how true that is. None of us want a theoretical love. We all deserved to feel loved in all possible ways. The knowledge of it, itself has absolutely no power if there's no intended action to follow it.

"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes" - Raul Solnado