Hey everyone!
I'm sort of on vacation right now. I know it's weird, we're in the middle of second term, how is it possible? I know, I know, I am taking my sort of vacation now, even though I will keep attending my classes at least for another week, because my next assignment is only due in April so I am taking this time to enjoy myself and organise my life and thoughts and watch my favourite movies ( there's this new tv serious called 'the carries diaries' that is based on the story of Carries Bradshaw from sex and the city but when she was younger and having her first adventures in Manhattan, NY. It's teen ish and girl ish but I do like it, the same way I like the pretty little liars. But not the same way I love the big bang theory or how I met your mother or happy endings or new girl. These four are my top favourite tv programs ever!!! simply hilarious and a very good way of spending your spare time.
So, as I told, I'm kind of enjoying myself and watching these tv series and interesting vlogs on youtube about new make up stuff on drug stores and how to combine your old clothes and make these cute stylish outfits and many other random stuff. I always get lost on youtube. I watch pretty much anything I find interesting for a certain channel and then I keep watching all videos from that channel lulz. By the way, what's the thing with "the sandwich". I don't see why is it so hurtful, after all is just a sandwich and I tell you I basically live of those. I've read it on perks of being a wallflower and I've been hearing people saying it all the time and I don't really get it. Is it a code for something nasty? I don't know and I don't know if I will like to know it, that's why I haven't googled it yet haha If you do, let me know in an easy way please. Don't traumatise me. I'm a pretty sensible gal :p
Uh. In relation to my dilema about going or not going to portugal during easter holidays, dilema solved: I bought my fly ticket already and I'm flting on March 16th, departure from London heathrow. I'm already getting ready because I really want this trip to be steady and calm and not stressful at all. I'm tired of drama and problems arising all the time during these trips so this time I'll make it all perfect in order to just enjoy it while I'm reading a nice book or playing an addictive game on my tablet while I'm drinking my hot chocolate. Just enjoying my flight as I am supposed to. So, I'm just making sure I have everything set up before the departure.
I kind of regret, not kind of it, I truly regret buying this ticket. Not for the money, it was actually a pretty good deal but I just don't really want to face all the drama concentrated in Portugal. I just feel like I will fall apart and I am afraid I will be somehow as lonely as I am here, you know? You don't but just pretend you do. And I am working very hard, believe me, VERY HARD, to keep my pieces together and keep calm and sober.
I'm always excited to see my friends though. It will be nice. it's only beentwo months this time so they probably did not have enough time to miss me ;) I always miss them because I spent a lot of time alone and my mind always picks up adorable moments I spent with them while I was in portugal for the last time, to remind, so I always think of them and wonder if they are truly doing okay and if they need me, I hope they know I am here to talk to them. I wish my friends skype more with me more. I skype all the time, almost everyday with my mom, dad and sister but I wish I could do it as well with my friends.
A friend of mine, a really good friend, sometimes I forget it how great she is, pointed out that whether I like people or not here in England, I really should start creating a foundation of friends and family around here. I agree with her and I've tried several times but it has not been easy. I don't "click" with them or the other way around.
I was feeling a bit down this afternoon. Not blue, more like pissed off with the world and beauty queens. I don't hate anyone in specific, I just don't like people in general. Teenagers girls and young women and whatever you call girls from my generation. There is nothing wrong with them really. It's just they make it so hard to fit in, if they only knew. Anyway, so, I gave myself a little treat, to make me feel better about myself as I always should. So, I went online and bought these adorable combat boots I've been flirting and wanting them since they went to the stores in past autumn and I never really had the opportuny to buy ones, so I just treated myself a little and I am feeling much better. Can't wait for them to arrive. They will look gorgeous with these tan jeans I bought last month :3
This is me being random, boots and jeans and acessories are things I truly adore and also really frustrate me because I can't buy them all and they don't always look good in me.
Anyways, it's late night, actually it's almost dawn and once again my attempts to fall asleep did not move forward - I FAILED :( - so I am still awake. In the morning, I will regret this decision for sure but for anyhow, I thought I'd post a little something, totally a random post and just say hi and let you know I am doing better and will be travelling again to my homeland very soon (this saturday!)
Love always,
Tommy
PS. Alright, this link goes to this adorable blog from an acquaintance of mine. She was my colleague and I've always had a link to her blog here on Mk, in my favourite blogs section, but I really wanted to highlight today because I think she is really talented and more people - people who are fluent in portuguese - should definitely check her blog and comment and get inspired because her writing really does that. So, yeah that's it! :) http://carapauvsmaster.blogspot.co.uk/
"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes" - Raul Solnado
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