As weird as it may look like, January's over. It slipped away through our fingers. It's crazy. And honestly after a month living in 2013, I can assure you all, this is SO NOT my year. I'm not feeling it, at all.
The best part of my day is when I finally fell asleep and the worst when I hear my alarm clock ringing. I really wish I could spend a day in another person's shoes. I'm tired. Just really tired and unmotivated and heart broken and I wish today was new year's eve and I could smell a glimpse of 2014, a greater year to come, at least I hope.
I seriously don't know what's wrong with me lately. Since last year I'm in this crazy emotional wave I can't get out of it. It's like I'm always so damn emotional. It's insane. I wish I was a boy and I wish Valentine's day wasn't so close, because I know it will make it worse. Maybe it's about these last teens years and feeling like I haven't really lived like one.
Perhaps is because, I'm feeling over concious about my appearance.
Whether it is one of these or not, I'm in really bad shape and I could really need some refreshment in my life, like someone new and different and awesome and interesting and not troubled.
And I wish I could be THAT girl to THAT someone - a male someone haha.
I can't focus on my studies. I can't focus on my duties. I can't get a job. I can't protect myself. I fear my damn own shadow. well, I don't know.
And I dont see a reason to keep writing.
Have a good night you all,
Love always,
Tommy
"Façam o Favor de Ser Felizes" - Raul Solnado
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