teen blogger!

I blog about my life, the music I like, the books I have enjoyed reading, the movies I've watched on the theatre or at home, the places I got know, the people I've fallen in love with and the people who have broken my heart too, my anxiety, my low self-esteem, my dreams, my desires, my general taste, my goals, myself.
And sometimes, due such a variety of themes that I discuss here is hard to summarise, to sum up in a few words what type of blog this is. Well, I will tell you know that it doesn't fit categories but it definitely fits life. It was for years a teen blog, now is entering in a new Era of a young adult blog, with university, work and placements. There is no way I could ever delete this blog. I deleted another one I was doing before MK and now I regret deeply. If you're a blogger too, understand this, whatever you write, this is history, your grandkids may look at this in 50 years from now and say "my grandma/grandpa (s)he was as insecure as I am and (s)he made it, so I can make it too". Mk tells my story which may not be the most interesting story to tell, but it's mine, in so many and diverse ways mine that no one could ever take it from me.
Mk taught me that life can be very hurtful but if you have just one place that you can just write about it. Oh darling, you will never feel like giving up. If my existence could be compressed in one single point, Mk would be it.
I write foremost for myself because I may my biggest reader. I always re-read my own posts several times, I like going back in time and spot the changes, the biggest changes, the smallest changes, what I haven't changed and what I am still willing to change. Mk helps me to lift my crazy moods and get up in the morning and face life.
I write for you too crazy teenager going through crappy stuff and feeling helpless. You won't find great dea of advices here, I guarantee you, but you will find someone who went and is still going through the same stuff. Being a weirdo or a misfit is a reality for many of us, so don't feel like you're alone, cause you're not. The world has not sen your potential yet. You may lack some visible interaction still or ability to make friends, but each being in his life is balanced. So, what you missed in there, you will compense in other things as an amazing  hidden talent. You may draw beautifully or dance or sing or analyse people or tell stories and the list goes on.
You are special in so many ways and perhaps some day you will find the people who will make you feel in this way.  I don't know if I have found my people yet. They may always been here and I just don't see them, they may not have arrived yet, I dunno. I know that I haven't found my one in 7 billions and I believe the moment I see him, my people will appear too.




Love always,
such a lovely day today :D
Tommy


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